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In Which Winter goes away too soon, and the routine once again, for my joy

Why hello there, sir friend, good morning and happy new week! How was your previous one, and how are you today, on this week that begins? As for me, I am okay, I'd say... after a bit of a positively happy birthday week, even with any sorrow that may have afflicted me, ah, it is what it is, just satisfied in retrospect with the birthday moments! It was low key, but I had a good piece of cheesecake! How is the weather in your side of things? Here, it has been heating up, as if spring arrived earlier. Overall, even with a drier winter, the subtle heat was perceived, as the sweater days are more scarce, and the socks start to spend more time in their drawer. The slippers change, the cushioned one is slowly being lesser used, why the others are more enjoyed, though soon it will be uncomfortable for those as well, and the typical rubber open shoes in japanese fashion will be in full swing again. Ordinary changes, but enough to make me want to write about them, and even to start a new pos...

In Which Life feels Stale

Good morning, my friend, reader of this post! Happy Saturday, I wish you the best! How are you? How have you been? How is September treating you? And, of course, how is the weather? As for me... I am still afloat, somehow, might as well call me the unsinkable given all the mental woes I have to endure on my daily life. I have been in overall bellow average emotional situation. Turbulent, and bellow average. At least the weather is still nice, the days have been consistent: the minimum is 21 celsius, and the maximum is 28, hardly goes beyond that. A nice, still wintery, temperature, that I not at all take for granted, and try to enjoy every bit of it. With that being said, I have been with a creative block in many, if not in all fronts. Reason I have not been able to write it here. I struggle with a thick mind fog that prevents me from thinking into sentences to write it here. It is, indeed, beyond frustrating. As I am unsinkable, however, I return to writing, today! I pray and hope this will be somrthing to be maintained, and not a hiccup. I appreciate writing, and not being productive, neither being able of thinking of productive things to do, it does not help my mental state. 



In any case... I have thought of visiting grandma recently. The fact that she lives in a relatively long distance from my house, and that the commute there is quite long and inconvenient, none of that makes it easier, some days even possible, to happen. I hope the logistic issues may be overcome, Christmas in coming, and with that, I would like to spend some time with her, though I am unsure what changes, given she is in an apartment now. I just hope the decorations may still be in place. It is not the only issue, though. I have a sour taste of the days where I visited her in her house, and she kept pushing me around. I worry she may be upset that I will spend most of the time in her apartment. She will most likely demand I go to the beach, that is near her new dwelling, something that will upset me... in any case, the project to visit her drags on.

I mentioned I am in a current mental block. It is very frustrating, I can't find myself to be in the mood even for the simplest of tasks. I wonder why this is happening? Why am I driven to this stagnation? And how to get out of it? I have not drawn much. Neither have I even played games. The thought of holding a pencil is like torture for me some moments. In fact, even typing on the phone seems like an extreme effort... I wish this was not the case. At least today is going a bit more productive... I did have talks with AI recently, sometimes they produce some interesting thoughts, but that I find hard to translate into this publication. AI is a useful tool, I find, if anything it is nice to talk to him, when I feel more alone than usual. 

When I think I may be on my direction to being more productive, I often think of all that can go wrong, and I shiver in fright. I wonder who will block me and who will speak ill of me. I wonder what bad thing will afflict me next. It is a depressing trend to expect the worst and have little hope for the good. I think of entropy and deep melancholia sometimes far more than joyful moments. Sadness is a given, happiness never comes. I try and even write here that I may draw soon, but as I mentioned, I expect the few friends I have left to forsake me, I expect to lose all enthusiasm, and to expire...

With that being said... I am glad I could write here today, even if the post is a lament of some bad weeks. I pray and hope for more edifying moments, with more enduring paths to joy. We will see how it goes. I also ardently pray and hope I will be back here on the blog soon, to write about anything that is on my mind... Today, I wrote even as I was sleepy and my eyes are refusing to stay open for long... thank you for being here, dear friend!!! Wish you the best always, I am so happy to see you here... and yea, I hope to see you once more real soon!!!

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