In Which we have an early November with Grievances and some good thoughts in between

Good morning, my friend, reader of this present post! Happy Wednesday, of this beautiful November, of this beautiful season of the many holidays and the changing of the weather! We have Autumn in full swing, while where I am at, we have a bit of Spring and already a lot of Summer, and how it comes fast! This post is quite disjointed, I started in a positive tone that came to me quite naturally at that moment, and that I like to think it is my default. Then, as I was spending time at my grandma's because of my mom travelling, I faced the issues that comes with one different place, it is inevitable is it not? I mean, every place has its issues, and I did mention that on this post as well! I am leaning towards posting what I wrote, even if it's less than positive, instead of starting over, though, because even if it is not exactly a post where I even refuse to organize it and to promote it (as little as I usually do anyway, it is not the point of my journal-blog), it is not exactly one really thought out or intellectual or uplifting, it is more of me rambling about my father's negative bias towards life in general. No, not as a point of superiority, but just as a point of being drained and baffled at it, as someone that does not understand quite well how can someone lean so naturally in such way. It goes to show humans are really not equal after all, and even if that is a good thing, some people don't really sit well with others, goes to show how societal norms and so on can be important! That Chesterton quote I like a lot "you don't take a fence off before knowing why it was put there in the first place". With this frame being put, and admitedly quite later, given all is fairer when you look back at anything, here is for the post, cheers.

"A beautiful sunset that was mistaken for a dawn" -Claude Debussy

I have been, this week, around the apartment of my grandmother, with the good and the bad that this comes with. The good is just being around a lesser familiar surrounding, you know, the different lights and airs of a place that is nonetheless no unpleasant at all, in fact, quite spacious and agreeable, even if I miss my original home. I came here because mom is travelling at work, I think, how I miss mom as well, but in any case.... Seeing grandma is also good, she helps me so much, and I like to be around, it is good to see family. Funny thing, then, when seeing family is also a bad part of this stay. I refer of course to dad. I am sad to write this, because dad also helps me, I should give him credit where is due. But, there is little competition with him when it comes to people that DRAIN you. Talking to him, being around him, there is nothing more constraining, because he is stuck on a loop, he mentions only the same topics and same grievances with the same bitterness. He and I share some values in common, but it is the way he expresses those values, it is the repetition. He is not a socialist, thank Goodness, but he is so loud and bitter talking about some politician gaining money, that instead of inspiring the revolt that such evil politician should aspire, we instead look toward him with exhaustion: "Are you going to repeat the same grievance, so loudly, over and over", he is drowned and suffocated in the petty news of the petty gaslighting people on the television and the internet. Petty news of petty crimes, you know, the ones that claim the state should do something, while also asking the state to take the guns away from the law abiding citizen. That whole Rousseau crap that schools vomit on their captive audience. Such a disfunctional country. And specially disfunctional region, the one I live. And so, dad's otherwise good qualities are deformed by his own overstimulated and screaming brain, and further melted by the news cycle he so strongly follow. The left, and they did that with malicious intent not of taking this down, but of hijacking it, used to complain over the moderate and centrist news establishment of some decades ago. I am reminded of that, but as I said, with three or four caveats, given the left did their dirty tricks to replace and use the news cycle on their own gains, not in order to "improve" anything. Ah, ramble ramble, I know, and I did not even mentioned the book I am reading yet. But, and I say thank you for still reading, you please must understand, I have little else to go. It is not in my own home I am fully out of trouble, there the grievances comes from different sides and different people, specially my brother, that so frustrates and angers me with his willingness to be hijacked by the left. Petty mediocre people all around, and maybe I am also a mediocre one too, but not all mediocres are created the same. Thank goodness for inequality.

Is there time to talk of the book I am reading? The post is long as it is, and that comes as a wall of text for anyone coming around. The news cycle grandma insists on watching, and to her credit, she does get annoyed and turn it off when it gets too insufferable, do inspire me also to write on this topic, specially when they praised and asked the almighty governor to upheaval the zoning laws of the city, zoning laws that I consider the most evil devices ever come around by modernism, and that is an achievement. 

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As this post is getting quite big, and as I said, I did ramble a lot in it, I decided to start wrapping up here. It is more of a cut of how I was at that moment, rather than something more substancial, though it could be used as fuel for the idea of that book I am thinking about, the whole stupidity of the local mainstream news. Mainstream that my grandma did mention something important, may have that line due to excuse forces funding it, such as organized crime and so on... In any case, I leave you all here, but I hope to return soon for something more organized? I am not sure, but definitely a bit more uplifting, we will aim at it, if that is a possibility! Until then, wish you all the best, a happy Christmas season, happy Thanksgiving season, ah, by golly just have a holly jolly good day, will you? Bye.