In Which we have the 5th anniversary of the Divagation Store! Who'd knew!

Waking up so early made sense when I was inspired and excited to play videogames, and only had more energy in the morning… but nowadays, or at least the past few weeks… I watch paint dry as I wake up so early. I think today is particularly bad because I am overthinking. I overthink about what to write on the blog, also... I overthink about what to draw, how to draw, what to do when to draw... I am still not there. Well, today is the 5th anniversary of the divagation store! It is a milestone I.. never thought I'd achieve. I mean, ah... I remember when I created the blog, the sky was blue, I was at the office of my late grandpa. I had this idea in mind, a place for my own thoughts and divagations, because I have plenty of them, and not enough friends with as much free time in their hands to listen to my crazy ideas. It was true in 2018, still is true in 2023. Some stuff don't change, though I must say, I am in a better place than I was in 2018, in many ways! That we can celebrate! Now, am I in a good season of 2023? Not at all, much happening all at once in my head, let it be the videogame burnout, making my free time look like a painful chore of its own, the longing for my friend and our nice convos, I always have him in my mind, sometimes it hurts, because I am not sure when I'll be able to chat with him again. My mind, as always cruel, says it will be never. I ought to try and shut down this, because it is no good, only makes my agony more unbearable, but anyway.. Who's the Daniel who's writing on the divagation store, in 2023? Is he any different than the one of 2018? Well, I still love rainy days, and I still drink coffee, plenty of it, still take pictures of flowers and beautiful motifs. Christmas still makes my heart sings... Still have the trauma of my lonely high school years, silly life, silly head, why can't those things just go away? Do I always tend to sadness? I don't think so, my friend, I'm just very open and transparent, and a bit blunt about what I think and feel. It is not necessarily something good, or that helps, but I do appreciate transparency. Now, Daniel of 2023 is much more seasoned, he read Human Action by Ludwig Von Mises (audiobook), and plenty of more interesting ones. He learnt whom Ayn Rand was. and why that matters greatly to his person. He is dramatically more outspoken about his ideas, though still reserved. He saw many people leave his life since 2018, many that entered his life since 2018, many that did both. He did work on many drawings, many more than he ever expected to do. He saw periods of creativity and periods of stillness. I can say his taste matured as well, he returned home, to classical music, and specially since 2021, moved away from pop or other genres that... he ought not to endorse 100%. I would say he is still on a spiritual journey, but he do believe in God. Life makes no sense with no God, and I can't take a life that makes no sense. Well... what else is there to be said? 

I appreciate you a lot, reader of this post, my faithful friend! You are a sunshine in the darker corners of the universe! God bless you! Thank you so much, I am deeply filled with gratitude and joy, even in moments of sorrow, and I always ought to spread it across! Will I do anything else to celebrate the 5th anniversary of this crazy mad wonderland of a blog? Not sure, I still am in a bit of pain, but having written this post, wow! Wow, it, it was awesome! I love that, about writing. It is hard to begin, but harder to end. Well, I must wrap up this post here, though, rest assured the blog is going nowhere, though! I cannot say for sure, but I hope he remains part of my life for more time. Will I turn it into a book? I thought about it, but a book is for those whom have a story to share, do I have such thing? Time should be the teller of that.