Hey there, my good friend, dear reader of this post! I am happy to see you! Cheers! How was yout weekend overall? Can you believe we are already at the gates of a new month? Sweet July, the month of the height of winter! Rain, cold winds, fresh grey clouds, it is one of my favorite times of the year, if you don't count Christmas or my birthday! It is a month of the mid-year vacation for students and some teachers. There are things to look forward to, in short. One must keep going business as usual. And, as for me, regarding how I've been... I did have some challenging days, where I was plagued by apathy and deep melancholia. The medicine does help me when it avoids those conditions to form into a storm, but they don't have the ability to avoid the bad tidings when the come. I miss therapy, I hope I can return to it, but for now, with the finances being as they are... it may take a while. In any case, at least the weather is endurable. I love winter.
Not all went badly, I had some convos with some good online friends, so it balanced it out. I suppose considering it could have gone far worse, that was a win. In any case, June was not a bad month, I did listen to new music, specially some new opera pieces. I did write a lot, actually, and some quality pieces, too. I could not read much, because I kept being distracted, my mind was too fast and rushing for engaging in this activity, I blame coffee, and have once again be trying not to have it so blatantly frequently, though with little progress nor success. I did read, though, so that is nice, and given what I said, that is a win! And I did draw and I did play games, with Victoria 3 coming to life once more with their new massive patch update and dlc. I hope in July I can draw some more, and so on...
June was a month for the blog and for bringing a bit of Christmas back, the aesthetic of midyear Christmas, or Midmas, as I called, was the main one. Not much could be done to honor such good idea, but it exists now, maybe it will grow over the years. Life isn't over, not so fast, and just as I can go towards a Corn Season celebration once more someday in the future, I can bring Midmas to life more actively in the furure as well. If it is both pleasant and convenient, and if it is also meaningful, it will consolidate. I suppose those are important factors when it comes to tradition, they must be meaningful, and be at the same time pleasant/cathartic, and done in a convenient way. The ones that last usually seem to go this way. Ideally, one would go towards the happy things, as life can be harsh and unforgiving, one must have some deliverance.
Yesterday, I was particularly exhausted, but when it came the night, I could not sleep immediately, much to my dismay. It is what it is, true, but never ideal. I wonder if I should have taken the melatonin. I ask, because I can be a bit resistant on sleeping pills/substances, as natural and organic as they may be. I don't like when instead lf having the sleep at the time I want to sleep, I end up feelinf exhausted and mind numb the entirety of the next day from taking the medicine. I say it because it happened more than once, and that soured me over otherwise could have become a routine. No, I don't discart them, but I also don't actively partake in the consumption of sleeping medicine. Doesn't help my schedule is a bit chaotic and I usually don't like to be constrained when there is no active reason to be.
June ends, and July begins, with the promise of the 4th of July, and the vague prospect I may finally be able to find some work. I say it because my grandmother is helping me on this matter, and my resume is being requested by some people that are willing to also help me. I try to keep expectations out of my head, I don't even know what working entails, as I haven't done it before yet. But the idea of fulfillment and monetary earning is very much positive to me. We'll see. Could as well be something to make new friends with any coworker I may have the chance to, and to get out of the house to do something uplifting. We will see, for what thar counts I may hate it, but financial reward for a good service provided is very much welcome.
As June comes to an end, so does this post. I think I did write a lot here, today, that is good but also can get tiresome both for me and for you. So, let's start wrapping up today's entry! No worries, of course, you can expect to see me arounf once again in July, and soon in July I aim at. We will have a good post to open the gates of second semester 2025, and we will have a good time just talking and exchanging ideas. I see you again real soon, farewell!!!
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