Good afternoon, almost evening, my dear friend, reader of this post! It is that time, when after a moment of productivity, I find myself out of ideas nor desire to do anything. Ah, sad how it goes, but one must have balance I suppose. I do say this mentioning the past weeks, given I haven't written, nor drawn much, and my desire to play games is fleeting, at times it is all I wanr to do, at others I am struggling for meaning. It does suck to have moments of demotivation and a tired mind, but I don't think there is much one can do to avoid resting. At least I can say it was a very positive blog birthday! I thank you for being here! And I hope you are okay.
That all being said, I am very relieved I can type something here without dreading or panicking, be it at the blank page or at my blank mind. May this be a return to not as productive times as June, because those can't be manufactured that easily, but at least to more moments of activity creative wise. Concerning drawing, I had other reason not to do it: my desk was a mess, and that was freaking me out. Finally, I had an insight some days ago and decided to do something about it. I ordered a set of portable shelves for my "office" so to speak. They arrived today, and as I assembled them, and put things on a better order, I can breathe more relieved. And what's more, my mom, bless her soul, did bring me another set of shelves, that I also assembled, and while at first I thought one would be enough, I was very wrong at that. I needed another one, that mom fulfilled, for that I am grateful. Dad helped me on getting money for the one I ordered on Amazon, so I am grateful to dad as well. Because I was not having the desk so messy and needed that relief, I did not wanted to draw, and I did not while waiting for the gadget. Also, I did go to house of grandma the beginning of July, fortunately having a nice time there, but given I don't have a desk for drawinf at her place, I did not scribble, though I had some ideas...
Speaking of July innovations and acquisitions, I bought myself a new pair of special socks for winter. It is from the same brand that manufactures some very confortable shirts I own. The new socks are a godsend, and I cannot see myself without them anymore. Just a day was enough for me to love them. Being tight at first, they quickly adapted, and if I struggle at the beginning, I can't recall any of that now, it is all gone. God knows I like my comfort and convenience.
Another innovation is the fact my resume, that my dear grandma sent to a hospital for be considered to a position in a reception balcony, did get selected for the selective process! I had my first interview today, with HR, and if they like the sound of it, I will be able to proceed to next step, and maybe at the end I will get my first job, that promises many benefits and also a great payment for someone starting. I should pray that God decide on my behalf. True that His will is the ultimate one, so if I do not get it, He knows best. But His will could mean I get the job as well, I cannot tell, I can only pray for the best.
How happy I am to be writing today, at times I worry sick that I will never return. Don't worry, this is not limited to writing. Anything I do, that I like doing, I dread will be my last time doing it, before great toil, suffering, and soul wretching divine punishment. I fail to understand why my mind goes this dramatic, I wish it did not, but it is where I naturally lay towards, showing that not always one's natural self is the best one. Wisdom and Virtue are like the two wheels of a cart.
And that all being said, should I wrap today's post here? I did write a lot already, and I do not like to have posts that are too big. Better is bread with a happy hearts than wealth with vexation. I think this is a good place to end for today. Do not distress, I should return real soon, maybe at the weekend, for some more thoughts, ideas, takes and words of my routine. Until then, I wish you the best!!! See you again real soon, farewell!!
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