Good morning, my friend, dear reader of this post. Happy Sunday, and happy new August! My Birthday month has dawned! This is a wonderful occasion for joy. How are you? Hopefully your August had a good start. As for my own, I would say it is going overall okay. I will not say I am entirely in jubilee, for some reason I have a weird superstition, one that ails many people aware of the rule of the bad penny dreadful: when something is more than okay, life will prey on anything above the equilibrium state, and tear it down. I think I mentioned before, this is a reason real life is better than fiction. In real life, there are some barriers against the malice of writers. As Catherine II, the Great of the Russian Empire, said to one of her philosopher friends: you are a happy kind, you work on paper, that accepts whatever you throw at them. I, poor me, am an Empress, and I work on humans, they are not as forgiving neither ar as bending.
Anyway, rambles aside, I am okay. Happily so. Will take anything good and woe anything bad, but for now, okay it is. I have little reason to weep this time anyway. It is my birthday month, praise heavens! I am close to my year 27 of life, which is nice, not on the third decade just yet, I would hate to start dreading this date anyway. If I cam help it, I just want to celebrate it as I can, never pass it in woe. That I cannot take Catherine's example on. She loathed her birthday. In that note, I also got a medicine for my acid reflux! That is a very good development. And what is more, it worked very well. I should of course thank my doctor and my aunt that is also a doctor for the indication. All in all, I am okay, and I take the good things as they go, while hoping the bad things skip me.
This is a work I am proud of! My first finished house on Sims 3! Given that game has clunky building tools, I am very happy to have finished a normal looking house from scratch! Maybe I will do more as well!
I did drink some coffee just now. After the panic attack, I am doing an effort to cut my coffee intake. It was a very bad event, and I was not being able to sleep properly either. The past few days, I think about two weeks at this point, I have been taking 3, maximum 4, mugs of coffee. Before, I was at 7, or more, I cannot recall if I took more on a daily basis, in any event, it was a huge amount of coffee. The cut has been positive. I at least managed to return on sleeping better, and also on more normal times. I still have my moments of energy at midnight and around, but I do sleep to compensate. Before, because I wanted a good enough excuse to get out of bed, I'd brew coffee to use at the computer, more as a process and a powerful excuse to be out of laying horizontal. It was definitely not a good arrangement, and that attempt to try to fill the void was a disaster, that I can safely say. All because I was always longing, longing for a message from my dear friend. And he did not appear. And so, more I had the desire to stay still. If I move, he will forsake me forever. It makes no sense, but so many things in my mind, caused one issue or two to slip. Tragically, I think more coffee amplified the anxiety that I normally feel, and as such, more excuses to get out of bed were needed. Yes, I think the panic attack was to be expected, even. With that, now I can try and return to a slip of normalcy. I hope I can talk to friend on my birthday, though unlike 2023, I am not counting on it. It is what it is.
This has been the beginning of the birthday season. I already received some birthday money, thank Goodness. Maybe more to come, in any case, just grateful to be alive, fortunately in good health too. I am moving towards wrapping the post, given I think I wrote enough for an entry, when I write too much I can only imagine people will be bored, friend or friend in potential, that does not excuse anyone from not wanting to read what keeps going more than necessary. I found I HATE rambling, and so, I avoid it as I can, I value coherence. And as such, I should save some of my birthday purchases for next time, that will come really soon, God willing. Maybe I will write again in the early new week, but I rather not promise. In any case, cheers, see you all real soon, wish you the best!!
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