In Which I talk of Christmas Rococo and Videogames

Good morning! Happy April, dear friend, reader of this post! And of course, I wish you the best, I hope your first few days of this month of Spring or Fall - or eternal summer if you live where I live, really depending on where you are coming from, may be going alright! As for me, I am okay, apart from the woes of the moment. You know, the financial issues, the moments where I feel a bit more lonely... that situation. It is frustrating. Well, at times I focus on other themes to talk here, on others I unfortunately have to delve into my thoughts over this painful set of issues further. Not that I myself, overall, can do much about such scenarios. Anyway, took me a while to wake up today, I am avoiding to lay down right now at this moment, even, because if I do, I won't be able to write, I will return to a restless sleep. I really wanted to write on the blog, today. It is the first time the past few ones that I am in such disposition. I won't let any heavy eye spoil what takes me so long to achieve on my own. 

Image done by AI, showcasing my love for Christmas Rococo.

I have not drawn much, I will admit, much to my desperation. This is because, as with writing, I have been indisposed. There are moments of fatigue, and I do not entirely have wrapped myself around how to proceed. I either have the urge to embrace the fatigue, to lay down and never to put myself up on my feet again, or I urge myself to push through the immense current of air and water that is dragging me on another direction entirely, to push through until I break down, in half, like a stick under pressure. Fortunately it never lasts for more than a day, if that much, but in that infamous present moment, it does appear that it will devour me and forever I will be gone. But anyway, being able to bring myself to be productive today, that is a nice milestone, is it not? Maybe today or tomorrow I will draw as well, who knows? Today I have been trying to delve myself back into a bit of Civ 5, with the addition of the mod Vox Populi, as well as a couple others I decided to try with it. I am not entirely satisified, I may try and play something else, in fact I'd prefer that way. I cannot decide what, yet, though. I often return to Civ out of habit, because other games are harder to bring myself in to the mood to properly explore them, to properly do stuff on them. There are many different options available, but I often return to Civ. Been trying for many months to shift from one game to the next more smoothly, and yet I am not a machine nor automaton, I cannot proceed in such way.

Image done by AI, based on a drawing I made some months ago!

One thing I have been doing, speaking of automatons, is exploring the realm of Image Generation using Artificial Intelligence. In the near past, it was a good enough pastime, but the images were bellow average at best. Now the abilities of the mechanism are more advanced, and to the point it has become actively fun to engage in, for example, to upload one drawing donw by me, and with the series of instructions, that must always be clear, must never have more nor less words necessary, to generate something on it, that many times, makes my eyes sparkle with joy. I do not use the term Art to describe it, I do not like to use it. Emmanuel Kant and his ghastly followers polluted such word with their magic spells, those dark wizards. I don't like to blame Plato, like Mrs. Rand does, even if I have much admiration and I take lessons from her as much as possible. Still, without Plato, we would not have Aristotle. Not thar Plato is without malice. He is also a wizard, but one which words are much taken out of context and used against even their original meaning, if there was any. Artificial Intelligence does not do "Art", in short, but it does an increasingly good job at portraying our thoughts into reality. It is good that it does that and it improves, but it does not replace our desire to do things with our hands, and to take it into our manual control to bring our thoughts to realistic light. AI is fun, and I have been quite fond of creating different images with my instructions (most of them Christmas Rococo, Roman Frescoes with Christmas Rococo, anything Christmas Rococo), but I still like to draw. If I stop, I don't think it will be due to AI, and I rather not entertain the thought of stopping it, anyway.

With those words, that I am so happy, so relieved, that I could say them out loud, on the digital paper, I suppose I should wrap it up! It is a big one, is it not? I often start one post thinking none will come out of it, and in the end I find myself having a hard time to stop myself! But, stop I must, because too big of a post, not even I will be able to endure it later! Anyway, when should I return here? Ah, soon soon I hope! The week is still at its first half, maybe I will be here again before thw weekend! Maybe dear God will find on my interest to allow the mechanisms of my mind to move on that direction. If not, He knows better than I anyway. So, I bid you farewell, for now, see you again real soon!!! Cheers!