Good evening, my friend, reader of this post! Happy Tuesday-Wednesday, and happy new week, even if we are close to its half. How are you, today? How have you been? I am, overall, okay. Had a bit of an off Monday, just was very tired throughout the day. Tuesday has been okay overall, not much to have enthusiasm over, we shall see how Wednesday will happen. The weather has been somewhat pleasant, a lot of rain, and for the standards of my region, very fresh. A strong moment of pouring of water caused me to skip pilates today. My mother will be upset but what does she want me to do, go to class under the pouring rain? That I find it best not to do. I told her in advance, and perhaps she will be not as upset. In any case, I must say it can always be colder, but I'll take as it goes. Still can comfortably wear my favorite jumper and the cushioned slippers, so I should not be grumbling too much. As for activities, I have been visiting a bit of Anno 1800 these days, and today was no exception, specially due to their new Mod, the New Horizons one. I just unlocked the new asian region, and it looks quite pleasant, though requires a lot of interregional trade routes. I would say it is a harder than average session, not as brutal as the arctic, but still quite requiring logistic abilities. There is a lot to do on this save. I do have plenty of mods on my game, I think I mentioned it before, so I get overwhelmed by what they add quite fast! Not so bad, just requires some adaptation. There is not much space available in my own main island, at all, as an example, the way that may require me to do some changing of layouts, we'll see. In the past, I used to properly chop the game into different chapters. But, with the new wave, that has been quite disturbed. Of course, I already dread of the moment I will run out of things to do on the game. Life keeps on going as it usually does, but for a day, I will be heartbroken over not seeing a point in looking forward for tomorrow, given nothing will seem at grasp. Usually it dissipates, but the dread of facing such situation, is a very dreary cloud.
Winter means crazy socks and comfy slippers! At least one reason to rejoice.
As it has been a pattern over the months, there is no shortage of things to talk about. Brazil keeps collapsing and the attempts of power grab of the central government, the left wing oligarchy and its courtiers, grows ever more daring, in the worst way possible. They lost all pretention a while back, and are trying to manufacture a crisis to keep pushing for their most heinous acts. Living in a household with far leftists, such as my mother, and my dreadful brother, makes me ever more isolated. Perhaps it should soon be time to visit grandma, but oh Lord, she lives so distant now. American politics is such a supersonic kaleidoscope now, it still is going fast, and not entirely on a good direction. I am as always happy of the victory of Mr. Trump, but some bad actors are steering the resentfulness due to the many years of leftist persecution, of many in the right towards a direction that is not good, towards revenge, towards a brand of revolutionary socialism that as only merit, it is not on the left side. Not that this cause me any joy, I hate socialism, wether it be of the communist branch, or the reactionary one, such pain to have to admit that there are bad actors even in a spectrum I find myself in, and for many years, have found myself much more at home. My breed of conservatarianism is being pushed aside, and that is quite painful. God knows what the future holds. I wish I could ignore world affairs, but not only I know too much, the volume of news is being put on blast, it is hard not to hear bad things, that I hate to even grasp the noise of, so, no short of things to talk, but there is the fact I usually have trouble putting the thoughts together, it is a supersonic kaleidoscope in America, and endless dread in my country. Besides those storms and windows of opportunity, on other topics, when I finally have time to sit down, or lay down, and write, they are not with me anymore, the words and the thoughts. Reminds me of therapy, where I can have a horrid week, but when I arrive at the therapist's office, I am no longer aching mentally, and in fact I am quite managed, the will and urgency of saying anything is gone, and the session drags. I miss therapy, speaking of which... due to the financial woes, I had to put the talks on hold. I miss my good therapist, and I hope I may resume the sessions at some point.
The past weeks I had to spend more than usual, on groceries. I do not enjoy spending such money and credit on food, and specially not if I have the woes of a meager season, money wise, but I suppose one has to eat, and specially as I usually can't be bothered to cook, may it be scrambled eggs, or pasta. My mother will travel, maybe that seems to be a good excuse to go towards grandma, but it is a distant road, and even with the bad side of my own household, I like the apartment I have grown to call home. I am comfortable here, and any reason for unhappiness, none of them are because of my dwelling, per se, and quite the opposite.
I am happy to have been able to write down some thoughts, I started this post in the early morning, and was soon overwhelmed with tiredness. When I woke up from the nap, the train of thought disappeared, and I thought I'd have to redo the whole affair. Not the case, I sat down, and just revised things, and here we are, at the end of a relatively good piece! At the end of the day, this Tuesday, even if I could not go to pilates, it is raining and slippery outside, it was a productive one, given I even worked on a drawing to dear friend! Yet another one.
Should I wrap today's post on this point? I trust I could, it is getting too big, is it not? When should I return? As soon as I can, and as soon as my mind is in a productive mood once more! Also, May is coming to a close, and that gives me an excuse to write even further, wrapping up this month, and kicking start the beginning of corn season and blog birthday! Cheers to that. And as so, I wish to see you again real soon. No worries, I shall return, writing is nice and a healthy pastime, that I have no desire to abandon. Farewell for now, wish you the best, make sure to enjoy anything good life offers your way! Do it on my behalf if anything, cheers!
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