In Which one tries to summarize thoughts while tired and exhausted

Hello, and good evening, my excellent friend, reader of this post! How are you, this Wednesday-Thursday? How is the weather? Here, it is fortunately moving fast to full winter, how wonderful is that? Apart from the relief of having more fresh days, I have been a bit out of sorts? Just, take yesterday as an example: it was not entirely unproductive, but I dreaded many moments. My favorite pastime, gaming, seemed to have forsaken me once again, for some reason. I cannot find joy into any title I choose, if I choose any at all. The more I doubt which one will I play, the more I am filled with the desire to not do so. I feel unwell because apart from that, what will I do on my free time? Writing does not take me much time. Neither does drawing. Perhaps I should try to craft something tomorrow? If I so desire, something related to my out of season christmas moment? I don't know what is the point. I am tired, I have no fixed income and as such my credit card debt grows exponentially. I thought I was in a better moment. I don't know what happened exactly, the groceries does not seem to count for it all. Maybe just the interest of past payments? Quite demoralizing to think you had things under control, only to spiral downwards later. I don't want to blame anyone for failures, not me, not anything else, it is what it is. It can be solved, I just do not know how at this precise moment. I don't know, I bought this apron some days ago, and new slippers since my brother uses my main pair. There is a hole forming in my favorite stay-at-home cushioned ones, which is depressing. I cannot say the quality of the material is bad, because it did last more than a few years at this point, I wish it could be repaired but I find that unlikely, alas. 

Would you forgive me for this moment of complaint? Not much else to do. I am, of course, grateful and happy my blog is 8 years old now! I wonder if what I wrote means anything. Should it mean anything? Have I changed much? Not at all? I am not one to read again what I write on the journal. I actually have a good recollection for some words I put on the paper, so there is not much use, but also, I just do them in a sitting. Probably when I write anything more substancial, I think of my book project, I will have to redo things, but I find if I write already thinking of corrections, I will not get anywhere at all. Probably why I would not be a researcher, not really have the mind for looking into files and digging into dust and dirt to find anything. Lord knows what will be of me, I certainly don't know what I am good at. I am in this awkward position, not in one place, not on the other, when ir comes to the crafts. It is what it is.

One good thing is that I finished the handmade version of my blog's postcard to celebrate such milestone as 8 years of journaling! How nice is that? I showcase here, and I am bappy with how it turned out! I think I added all I should, and left out nothing that would be missed on such piece. So, this is nice! Writing is also nice! Just putting the words on paper is cathartic, thinking on who may read it is thrilling, maybe no one, which is okay. Maybe I will build chaos for myself if the wrong person reads it and decide to make a fuss of it. I don't loudly promote this publication, but I am not really hiding it either. Just happy to do the recollection of my thoughts as I can. And if you are a nice person, a friend, and read this, I welcome you and I thank you.

I should be back to my publication here real soon, so no worries! Probably before the weekend if I can, or maybe after that, we are in the corn season, maybe I will see fireplaces. I did hear of some sporting event too, but those do not concern me. Anyway, thank you for your friendship, and I wish you the best! As I said, I will return real soon with thoughts of my own, and just the writing of how my day went. Until then, wish you the best, of course! Happy Thursday! Farewell just for now.