In Which I am torn between Three Books

Good morning, my friend, dear reader of this post! Happy Monday, it is indeed a new week, and hopefully one good one! How are you? How have you been? As for me, I am okay, one step at a time. I may have good news to share, even! I finally may be moving towards getting some work, which is exciting and also a bit nervewracking too. Nothing really major, which is to be expected given this is my first job, I definitely am not complaining, it should be a win! If not, that is also fine, ir is not like I am doing much at this moment, and I can use the money! Apart from those developments, I have been trying but the past few days failing a bit on keeping up creatively. I want to draw, but I have been on a bit of a creative block, which reflects on the blog as well, that is no good. I hope I can at least doodle something, but I do not desire to force anything. I have been reading more than usual as well, thankfully! In fact, I am torn between three books, I cannot decide yet which one I will proceed with next. There is one that is very promising on the good legacy of colonialism, by Bruce Gilley! I am enjoying it, but have not entirely committed to this yet, neither have I committed yet to the much more sombre reading of The Marxification of Education, by an author I admire and like a lot, James Lindsay, whom I hope I mentioned before here. This reading is harsh because this is a topic that is immensely scary, due to how close to home hits me, given I am a brazilian and have been a victim of the devil Paulo Freire, and Lindsay does quote from the mouth of that disgusting evil being. Just reading what Freire wrote, I can see how he influenced the teachers I had, so I can trace every single disfunction on the classroom to this firebrand. I have been trying to read it, given I had it on my library for many years but did not make much time for it before. The other book is the new release by another historian I admire, Leandro Narloch's wrote a new book on his great series of politically incorrect guides, this one on the environment. As one person that hates the whole environmentalist agenda, I will enjoy this one and I am already doing so, but havwn't committed yet. And the list only grows, as I jump from one book to the next.

Speaking of which, how is the weather? I see the beautiful pictures of Autumn, and here we don't have much of it, though some trees do lose their leaves in this time, here, notably, the chestnut ones! They don't get naked for winter/summer, but they do have a big shed of old ones. Quite atmospheric, the closest one in the tropics can get from a proper fall. I am also happy and relieved that the weather hasn't got hot like summer, yet. We are still on very pleasant terrain, or maybe it's me who has lost weight over the past year. Ah, but I should not take this new time for granted, I let myself be comfortable for the past two months and I did gain pounds for the first time since the surgery, which is alarming. I am already making a bigger effort to avoid refined sugar, as much as I love the sweets, as the consumption of those treats, specially at the house of dear grandma, was the leading factor to the weight gain, according to my dietitian. I have no reason to doubt that. I should at max have some piece of milk chocolate per month. I really do not desire to gain weigjt and return to that level of obesity that afflicted me. Everything is awful when you are that fat. And you see it better now that you have had the opportunity to again be on a more healthy spot. I can now fit in many more clothes, I can move more gracefully, I feel much better about my face, I can sit and lay down for longer and more comfortably. I can fit chairs again! I do not desire to lose any of this, even if sugar is so good. 

I will add that I have so many AI generated images of my drawings done on realist style, much more than I can figure out what to do with them, if anything... I accept suggestions!

Apart from all that, what else is there to be said? I definitely may have had topics in my mind but not the drive to write them down, frustratingly so. I have the book idea in my mind, and I would love to progress on it, but not all thoughts about it are constructive, some are quite on the overthinking scenario, as an example, I dread with the notion I'd have to quote sources... this is not the kind of project I am going for. Specially due to how scattered everything is. You get snippets from youtube videos as an example, videos that quote books that you have read a bit of, and such granularity makes it harder to do the quotation and sourcing area. That is an obstacle to my progress. But anyway, it is what it is. I also don't have the thoughts at the front of my head most times, so relying on mood is not prone to productivity. It is frustrating, but one must work with the mental abilities one have.

So, I trust this blog post is reaching its moment of wrapping up. I say this because I think I wrote everything I had in mind, and I wanted to update it here once more, as I do it semi-rotinely. Very grateful to have you here, also! Today was more of a personal milestone blog post, having it be about the books I have been venturing on, the book I may or may not write and the challenges... the job I may or may not get... one step at a time at the end of the day. I think I did type a lot, I don't want to overstay, thst would cause you to be bored and I to be drained, so let's call it here! No worries, for I should be back real soon! Thank you once again for being here, I wish you the best, and I see you again real real soon!! Farewell for now!