Good morning, my friend! Happy Friday! How are you, today? How have you been, this week? I wish you the best! I am okay, for today, so far, thank Goodness! I went on a shopping spree recently, acquiring three ebooks I was looking for. It is a healthy pastime, after all, such is drawing, too. I want to work on something, but at times, I am very sadenned by some somber thoughts that discourage me from pursuing that. Truth is, in some days, I am persuaded to just stay in bed, for as long as I can. I think "why should I do anything, after all, but to stay in bed? If I sit down on the chair, I will get sore. I cannot decide what to play, and do I actually like to play games, or am I being trickled into it?". This is certainly unhealthy, intrusive thoughts, and yet, I sometimes can't help but to listen to them. Overall, just very upset I can't make up my mind in relation to what to play next. I hate that picking the wrong game can ruin my mood. For example, I decided once again to try the chaotic Humankind, it was a sore mistake. The game finally received a new update, but that update did little to make the experience more enjoyable. I just really cannot get used to the odd mechanics, and the ill done menus, and worst of all, the expansion pack, that made the game even more disjointed. I want to give that game up, and I might as well do that. I barely installed it, already on my way to take it out of my machine. I should also remove it from my list of favorites, so I am not tempted to try it again, for a while. I cannot forgive too well a pastime that bothers me.
I decided to start listening to another biography, another one of Catherine II of Russia. I am not used to this author yet, and her biography by Robert K. Massie still is my favorite one, and most likely will remain this way. Still, I am fond of Catherine. I also appreciate the tormented empress Elisabeth, no one can deny she was formidable, and a friend of elegant amusements. And coffee, some record she loved a good coffee, and so do I, more than I should.
Some Christmas Kitchen Appliances! Are they not adorable? I personally am very fond of them.
I always worry I am writing nothing but crap in the blog. That I may bore you, dear reader. Why am I so cruel to myself? I always set impossibly high standards and if I don't meet them, if my blog is not a literary masterpiece, if I am not effortlessly producing a masterpiece of proportions unimaginable, I am deemed worthless by my brain. I am done with this. I like journaling, writing about stuff that is on my head. And I am not worthless. I am really upset with this line of rationalizing.
What will I do, after this post is done? What will I play? Will I read or draw? Should I proceed, today, with any obligation I may have? Are they on the same line, hierarchically, from the hobbies? Thinking about this, it hurts me. I always like closure, it is not always possible, though. I trust this is a nice time to wrap things about? Perhaps, yes. This, of course, will not be my last post on my blog, don't worry. I should write again really soon. Maybe at some point on the weekend, or maybe next week! It is very weird that Christmas day is so close, now! We are approaching it so fast, too. I want to spend my time in my grandma's, as is my tradition of the season. As such, I hope I can write something special for the date. But even before that, I should be around. Thank you, dear friend, for being here. See you again really soon, and I wish you the best! Don't be sad, and keep a good disposition, for you are a great person, and I appreciate you.
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