Good morning, my friend, reader of this post! Happy Thursday! How are you today? How is the weather? On my end, well... I have a burnout on videogames, a big one. Is it the bigges I've ever had? No, I don't think so... it is pretty easy to forget earlier struggles in this category. But it is nonetheless a pretty bad one. I have no desire to play anything. I look at my library, and yet I do not really want to press start on anything at all. I dread Anno 1800, a game that I repeated the gameplay several times. I dread Age of Empires... Europa Universalis and Victoria 3, just the thought of those ones make me shiver at this moment. It is so severe I have been playing the dollhouse of all games. I hate this, I hate this. I want to bhe out of this nightmare. I want to feel inspired and feel joy again. Sometimes I have the desire but not the energy to do it. Please, help me. What should I do, next?
Maybe this is a signal for me to visit grandma. A change of airs, I suppose. I haven't been there since Christmas, it has been a while. I may go have lunch there, today. To spend the day, however, that has got to wait, I ordered some staples from amazon and I am waiting them to arrive, the next few days. God knows I cannot wait to start using my new bag of the color indigo! A change of airs is definitely needed specially when I think of the fact that my bedroom is a sauna in summer, and if you think that is bad, just you wait till you hear the weather has been on the 37 celsius these days. I cannot move an inch without sweating like crazy and smelling badly. Again, I hate that, I hate that. Just, summer, and this videogame burnout. What am I supposed to do with my free time, that is plenty, these days? If I don't leisure I find trouble in doing everything else... I also detest complaining, but please understand, these days I have very few places where I can do that. I beg of you, please let me have this moment to vent, my dear friend, that I love.
It is not that I only have bad news, I talked with someone today, a new friend, and the conversation was nurturing on both ends! What an enchanting guy, I hope we may chat again someday. I always am looking forward to new friendskies... some have been absent, like dearest Johannes, I understand and support him and his travels and wonderful moments, but God how I miss him. It is frustrating and hard to understand the absence, not only of him, but of so many. I pray to God that He may offer me better moments. That I may draw and do not sweat when drawing. That I may have air conditioning at some point. That I may chat with Johannes and also my mind be free from my concerns. He is my friend, and I am his friend, why do I make it so tortuou?
This is not an obsession, this is just consternation, frustration, exhaustion. On so many fronts...
Thank you for letting me vent, dear reader of this post, my good friend, that I cherish so much. This is another one of those posts, I am aware. But I still don't want to have those posts where I don't put a picture and I hide under the rug hoping it would go away. I will put a picture here, and do it business as usual. What else is there to be done?
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