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Quote of the moment Vol.2

“We have had no good comic operas of late, because the real world has been more comic than any possible opera.” – Illustrated London News, Jan. 17, 1931 G. K. Chesterton

Highlighted Quotes That Caught my Attention At The Moment

"I am the last monarch of the old world. As Emperor, it is my duty to protect my peoples from their politicians" -Franz Joseph, Emperor of Austria-Hungary

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In Which I want to loudly celebrate Christmas Season 2026!

Good evening, my friend, dear reader of this present post. How are you today? I pray that your week has been a good week! And how is the weather? I am, as has been my frequent mood, over the past few days, perhaps a week or so, tired and drained. Perhaps summer is to blame. When the weather is hot and humid, it causes me to become lethargic. So, maybe it is the heat of the dawning of Summer, but this has not been the most productive november, so far, concerning my works on drawing and writing, I can only hope to do something interesting at other moment soon. I am in fact desperate to take something out of my head, yet it has been difficult. The fact I had a release of two very very anticipated dlcs for the games I play do not help in the slightest. There is only so much time I can remain seated without feeling incredibly sore and even hurt. My time at the desk is very precious, and yet I never know exactly how I will end up spending it. Since it is all hobbies, I default to the compute...
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In Which I beg God for some hours of relief

I can only say to you, my dear friend, and kind reader of this post, happy October! And of course, a good morning, and the best the day can offer. As for me... I feel sad to say it, but to express that the past few weeks have been truly terrifyingly bad, bad in a way I haven't seen since 2014, would be understating the agony I have been through, mentally. As an example, Saturday, Sunday and yesterday, which was a Monday, I could not eat. I was repulsed by food. It is a special kind of manic depression, the one I am facing at the moment. I can only beg to God in his mercy to save me, and humbly request to His kindness to concede my life, my joy of living, back. This I do washed in endless tears, because I am terrified of another month of this. I don't want it, I don't want this, I want my life back, or whatever joy I had. I want to play the games I did again, feeling joy in them. I want to have at least a bit of strenght to try new games, even. I want to draw again, I want to not feel like I am smashed by a million tons of lamentation all the time. I can't take this. I am yelling at the top of my lungs: please, God, give me the ability to feel happiness again. I am scared like I have not been in years, of having another second of this burning ennui. I don't want it. I cannot fathom another month of such terrible burning chronic boredom, numbness, inability to feel like I should exist in the first place. I am crying for help, and even so, I am scared of being this vulnerable, people can offer their help and make ir so much worse as result. This could be chemical imbalance, I am out of my meds for the most of September, because of logistic issues. I pray that it is. I hope it is not heavenly punishment for something I did wrong. I hope it is not arbitrary melancholy that no matter what I do, it won't go away. Let it be chemical imbalance, easier to solve, than a massive and huge crisis of meaning that will consume me. I am crippled, I can't do things. I don't feel capable of moving. I can only beg for an enduring October, one day at a time. That is all. Please, dear reader, my good friend, my dear good friend that I so adore and want you by my side, forgive me for not being able to write much this month of September. I just could not, and I felt absolutely smashed for not being able to write... I want my life back. I want to be happy, or at least not as miserable, anymore, ever again. Ever. Again. Ever again, God spare me from this, I can't survive this.... Ah... just give me relief. Relief, cold water, a bit of... something good. Is this too much to ask? I just want some days of rest. Of recovery. This is what I want for October. And if He does not give it to me, I won't speak ill of Him, I won't stop believing. I won't forsake Christmas, I love Christmas. I love the season. It will just be so hard for longer if I am not offered just some hours of happiness... If He decides not to offer relief, it is okay, but God, if you do, you may as well have truly saved me. Thank you either way...

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