Hello beautiful people! So nice to see you here! So, like I said, I was going to try my best to keep my schedule this vacation, one post on Monday, one on Wednesday, and one on Saturday (and maybe one on Friday too). I don't necessarily LOVE schedules, and I'd rather have a spontaneous place, BUT, I also created this blog so I can push myself to write more often. One of the reasons I don't is because I'm really dispersed and, like Julie Powell, from the movie Julie & Julia (2009) (and also from real life, because this movie is based on a real story AND she actually exists) - which is a wonderful motion picture, I need to talk about this one later here - I don't usually finish what I start. In order to have an extra incentive, I need to have a schedule, AND deadlines, just like Julie, so here we are! This is more of a recommendation than an actual order for me, but I hope it works!
And talking about writing and never finishing stuff, today I'd like to have a personal post to tell you all my difficulties with writing. I was going to do this on a later moment, but a video from Daniel Dovel, one of the rare youtubers I follow - he's so nice, I also should write about him with more details later - inspired me to do this now! Here's the video he made:
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| This is Daniel, btw, I totally recommend you all to look for him because he's really nice |
In this video, Daniel talks about his experiences with failure, about having perfectionist tendencies and how he deals with it. I really related to what he spoke, and decided to talk just a little bit about my own recent experience with writing!
I'm a person who really likes to write, I have a very busy mind and an imagination that sometimes frightens me, I'm always having weird dreams and just picturing stuff in my head, and having ideas in general. I also like to talk a lot and share stuff with people, so the IDEA of writing is always close to me. This is the way I express myself, this is how I show people I like them: specially in ocasions like Birthdays and in the new year, this is how I basically take my thoughts out of my head. But, ironically, this is also a very difficult thing for me to do, specially with stories, and why is that? Well, for a lot of reasons: I can't organize my thoughts properly with a story. Sometimes I know how something is going to start and to end, but I always get lost in the development of it. I can get discouraged really fast too, and also get really disperse. Sometimes I put too much pressure on myself, if I make a single grammar mistake I stop writing and this can be it for a story. Just to write this post was a challenge for me, I stopped a lot of times, took countless walks around the room, just stopped to do something else, and so on. There're stories I managed to finish, one or two, and I did had a blog back in 2012, in which I used to tell my own version of the script of my favorite show, Total Drama. What I used to do was to take an episode and change everything I wanted to change about it, it wasn't really creative but it was fun. Well, but there's this fanfic I started in 2014, I never finished, and I don't think I ever will. I wanted to write something about a subject but I only have the context and details, not a plot in sight. Sometimes I can see flashes of a story in my head, but I can't really translate that into something. All of this can be really frustrating, I have so much respect for those who manage to finish something, and for those who managed to write books and all of that, for now this is out of reach for me.
But here's for the happy ending: this is one of the reasons I created this blog, to have a place to write without too much concerns and to just keep pushing me to do something I really enjoy doing, inspite of the rocks in the way, but not too hard though, if you push yourself too hard, things will get worse. I think I'm happier now than I used to be on this subject, maily because I know myself better now and I know my limits, so I don't beat myself too hard for not being able to do stuff. I think this is the best thing someone can do! Know yourself, your limits, and keep going one step at a time! At least this is what I try to do! Wow, this post is getting so long! If you're still here, than you're really the BEST! Thank you so much! I'll see you next time! Yay!
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