I wish you a good morning, and the best, dear reader of this post, my friend! How are you today? How is the weather? Here, it rains, and the temperature keeps going down, which is lovely, isn’t it? I am very fond of wintery season! I am aware that in the “heart of the tropics” the weather changes very little, but well… I have been enjoying the “cold” so much I haven’t even put on a sweater, much, because I want to feel the wind in my arms. And as of my mood, I am okay. I hope today may be alright. I still miss dear friend terribly, but just knowing we are friends is enough, really. College this module was a huge disaster, but I suppose it couldn’t be different. Sometimes I wonder time and time again, what am I doing here? This is probably a symptom of the fact my previous life plans came to no avail, enthusiasm is gone and so is perspective. Routine can crush your path. It worries me deeply due to the fact I want to provide for myself someday. But well… anyway. I played some Europa this morning, it went almost alright, but the worthy Ottomans, the biggest foe of any Europa game, came at me very harshly, making me falter. Back to 1444 go I… such is life. Could be worse. And I can’t picture how it could’ve been better under that circumstances, so yes. I returned to a very positive medication I’ve been using, that helps me keep my appetite in check, and also makes me more motivated to do things. Overall, I don’t like being tied to mood controllers or any medical substance, but it is what it is. Hopefully I will keep on managing. I take three mind meds in total, two in the morning, one in the evening. When I feel sleepless, I take a sleeping pill. I hate feeling constrained by my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, feels like I’m making excuses not to do unpleasant things that I may have to do. Or so I feel others will judge me. I should not be my number one enemy, as I tend to be, that is unbearable. Apart from the games, I worked on some drawings yesterday, and I plan on doing some more today!! Hopefully, with the help of the motivation medicine, i will have more chances of carrying this pleasant activity through! I may play some more games soon, also. I would like not to play Europa anymore today, but well, when you have a mission in your head, hard to deviate from that, that is for sure! Do you remember when I was so fully into restoring the Byzantine glory, almost two years ago? It was a painful process, but I carried it to completion after all! It is a magical game, EU4, I actually feel like I’m learning things, doing things, it is a major brain stimulant! I know I complain and even go away from the game from time to time, which is expected, I am not tied to it, but I still think it is one of the best pieces of entertainment I managed to find! Can I say it is a masterpiece? I don’t know, It does feel like that, though, when I am into the mood to explore its world! What else is there to be said?
May all the hugs be on your way this new week! I do have something more to mention today! I finished reworking on an old college work, about the Rococo era! It was such a nice experience to go through it again, after 6 years or so of its completion! If I have something more to say on this topic, I’ll gladly write about it here on our beloved divagation store! For today, though, I believe this is enough of words, don’t desire to tire you over my talks. When will I be back? Hopefully at some point this week, hopefully before the weekend. But for today, time to wrap the post up! Thank you ever so much for being here, dear reader of this post, my friend! See you again real soon!!! Cheers!
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