In Which we have the Garden of Hopes and the bag of Joy

Good morning, my dear friend, reader of this post, and happy Saturday, the last one of 2023! I know my last post was somber, I was not really too uplifted thinking of my bad moments of this harsh year... but well, sometimes we just need some time to lament. How are you today? How is the weather? As for me... I could not sleep at all this evening, alas. I am not sure why... maybe I had coffee a bit later than what I should, maybe I had more dinner than usual. What I know is that hours passed by, and my eyes were not tired, and my brain did not shut down. It is something that may happen from time to time. I am okay, though! One step at a time! I plan on drawing something, soon. I really did not wish to stop either drawing or writing in 2024... I wish I did not lose any friends... I wish the friendships to endure in 2024... with dear Charles, dear Johannes, and SamFam... just have someone to chat with, may we have time to chat with one another, may they be in good health, and things may go okay. I hope loosening laces may be renewed, if they are to be renewed, and I may meet new folk, even! And I hope some people that annoy me, such as some folk in the family, don't annoy me as much.... I don't have many resolutions. And for friendship, it takes two. I know I will start a new course in college, I hope it goes okay. I will continue developing that work I was doing, most likely will wrap up in January, and with the money, I will pay the bills I have. God knows they keep piling up. I could use a job, though the idea seems extremely distant, now. The providence works in mysterious ways, I wonder what new music will I find, or rediscover. I hope I may be surrounded by a garden filled with flowers, for me to appreciate and take pictures. 

I may be doing a surgery, at some point in 2024, for my stomach... many friends told me it is best not to do it, but I just cannot see a way to lose weight otherwise. I have grown so heavy, it is so frustrating I can't seem to lose weight, and I have no motivation for exercising... ah, how melancholic have I turned this end of 2023. It is only natural, though, to face the future with caution. It is just some that don't have any these days. I won't complain about them, but they should leave me to my gloominess, sometimes... I know I will be spending the new year on my own, most likely. Mom is traveling, my brother will go out as well, and though I'd love to see grandma for the new year's eve and date, I am not really in the mood to see her sisters, God bless them. I wish I could be with friends, unfortunately they live far away, and they also have their own celebrations... well, I guess it could be worse... it is not like I dislike being on my own that much... but a friend would be much nice to be around...

Here is one of the christmas gifts I got to myself, it arrived this morning, this wonderful huge bag that I may transport my amenities! It is so beautiful, and it seems of quality, though it is too early to say if the quality is an actual thing about it...

Before my favorite season, winter, I have to endure the hottest months of the year: January, February, and April. Sometimes it rains on March, but well... always face it with caution, and when you least expect, happiness should come! Who knows? The first months of 2024 may be wonderful! Lots of reading, quality chats with friends that I appreciate so much, music, drawings... I don't want to get my hopes up, specially when I am not expecting to go that way... I am just saying that happiness and stability comes when we least expect, if the blows of sorrow may come unnanounced, so can also come the soft whistle of joy.

So, yes, those are my hopes for 2024: stability and friendship. Joy and pacing. What else is there to be said? I think this sums it up, and it is time to wrap the post up. When should I return to the blog for more thoughts, journaling... and so on? I cannot promise I will be here tomorrow writing, this Sunday, last day of 2023, so this could as well be the last post of the year. If so... I am profoundly grateful for your support this 2023, and maybe you will find myself worthy of support in 2024 as well! I know, and I mentioned, I don't desire to stop writing, journaling, registering... so, thank you, my excellent friend! Wish you the best! See you again either tomorrow or on the first Monday of 2024! Cheers!