Good morning, my friend, reader of this post! Happy Thursday, 4th of July, American independence day! How are you? How is the weather? As for me, I am okay, the weather is quite pleasant, we are another month into winter, thank Goodness! Today later, I will have pilates, but I am not sure even if I'll continue doing it... I have lost the little enthusiasm I had after a bad experience... and my melancholia gets worse when I am exercising. I worry that I will be pressed into exercising, it is always a bad situation concerning that. I have been feeling sad and alone the past few days. Being rejected is painful, more than I can say. My self esteem is low, I have little hope for my future, I don't think I will meet quite another soul like this former friend that abandoned me... it is not the most auspicious start to July. But anyway, I have my games, I suppose... started July playing as Japan in Victoria 3, and the first years of this nation are quite brutal.
What expect for July? I will try and see if I can get a new iphone, will have to wait for my mom to return from her trip, though. I worry over the family's financial issues, true, but I also will try to get the new iPhone. Birthday is just around the corner, and that it should be a happy occasion, there is little doubt about it, even with the hardships and deep loneliness. I doubt I'll be able to talk to Johannes for my birthday, I find hope even dangerous to be had, because it invites much frustration.
Fireworks, barbecues, cupcakes and freedom!
As I mentioned, very special day today, the day of the independence of the United States of America, my favorite nation! How will you celebrate? I just hope to have a calm day, one step at a time. It is my vacation from college, and I hope to do what I do on my free time: draw, play games, read... It is a nation facing hardships, but still is the best one, a beacon of light and hope for many including myself. I have written a lot on its virtues here on the blog. I don't know what else to write that has not been said before. I could mention its inspiring civil society, its check and balances in the government system, that was responsible for its resilience over the years. There is still much to celebrate. America is a miracle in the world's history, the culmination of the great british philosophy that was brewing in the island since the 17th century! It should indeed be held in high esteem! For it is a beautiful place, filled with industrious free people, that value their independence, which is most important. The light is not even flickering, even if it seems that way... we should not lose hope in the free markets, in descentralization and as I said, civil society!
With this, I think it is a good time to wrap up today's post! Just some laments tempered with some hope for better moments. I just wanted to write something to mark the occasion. When should I be back with more posts? Hopefully soon, hopefully at this weekend or next week. Until then, I wish you the best! See you again real soon! Happy July 4th!
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